Thursday, April 30, 2009

What a day


To pack...
To move...
To celebrate the Anniversary of Montana's Baptism ...
To celebrate my father-in-law's 60th birthday...
To reflect on the last 5 years in this house...
To reflect on the last 3 1/2 years of life with kids...
To wonder what God has in store for the next 5 years...
the next year...
the next month...
it's a great day to just pause, even though everything inside me is telling me to push on and finish the job.
See, this is Mo. She's 3 1/2. That's how she fell asleep after she woke up from her impromptu nap on the couch this afternoon.
She's not feeling at the top of her game today.
But...
I celebrate the vows I took on her behalf three years ago anyway.
I celebrate the journey she is now on.
The journey of living the God life.
The journey of pursuing love of humankind over love of selfish pursuits.
The journey toward upside down kingdom building and being a co-creator of a better world to love God in.
The journey of reconciliation, redemption, regeneration.
The journey of living out life the way Jesus teaches through scripture and the Church's tradition.
The journey of being a part of a movement that has changed the world.
The journey of treating everyone as a child of God, respecting our environment so we can leave it better for the next generation to serve God in, to serve God's people to the best of her ability by taking care of herself and those whom God puts in her path.

I can't believe this was you three years ago.
I'm so happy God gave me you to be my first born.
I'm so glad God chose me to be your mama.
May you grow knowing that the love of God is deeper, wider, longer, higher, lower, and closer than any other love on earth.
May you grow to love God and his bride with a passion that survives cynicism, with a hope that endures skepticism, and a longing for Truth that transcends our deepest lies.
I love you Montana Skye Baron, but I know there is one who loves you more and you were his before your home was in my womb, before your smile graced my life, before your hugs warmed our bed, and before your friendship touched everyone you meet.
Happy Anniversary!

Monday, January 5, 2009

An Awakening

Some friends of ours sent us this brilliant little book full of depressing facts about how our dollars are spent.
Over the last four or five years, my husband and I have been on a journey of enlightenment with our consumer power.
It started with the breakfast sandwiches at McDonald's which manifested into McDonald's on a whole which manifested into WalMart...and on and on we went, down the rabbit hole of consumer responsibility. The more we learned about corporations the less freedom we had with what we bought. It was really frustrating and saddening to know that virtually everything we were buying was either supporting companies that practiced unethical things (like child labor, child slavery, inhumane working conditions, or unlivable wages) or contributing toward the deconstruction of virtually all our natural resources.
We've made significant changes in our lives to try to make an impact.
We went down to one vehicle.
We began recycling & composting.
We have chickens.
We continue to boycott Walmart and McD's.
We only buy fair trade coffee or drink at shops that offer it.
We try to support as much local business as is possible for us right now.
and clothing, we pretty much only buy second hand or fair-made products...
Over the last year, however, I am deeply remorseful that I have become rather lax in this area. Not really paying attention to what I'm buying, except for the biggies. Still no Mc D's, Walmart, or buying coffee that isn't fair trade. But we've filled our consumer tummies with new clothing from Old Navy, gas tanks at Shell, etc.
But besides that...
pretty sobering now that I'm looking through this book that our friends sent us. I had no idea it mattered what brand of cheese I bought. Or Chocolate? Come on! So even when I thought we were doing pretty darn good, we weren't. We were still getting a failing grade even with all the changes we made.
Most people don't get us. That's cool. It's still important. It's still about social justice. Especially here in America. There's an old proverb that goes like this: With much power comes much responsibility. It seems to me, our consumer power, is one of the most powerful powers to have. And so goes with it some of the most responsibility for how we spend it.
Little things, baby steps, one chocolate bar at a time. I believe 2009 can be a year of real change. Not just in political power but in consumer power.
I'm awake!
I'm paying attention!
It's a new year and I'm convinced my dollars can make a difference this year. So can yours.
Peace & Subversion!
P.S.
If you have even had an inkling of enlightenment about consumer spending you have got to pick up this book and stick it in your purse, bag, planner, what ever you bring when you spend money. Or go to this website for more information The Better World Shopping Guide.

Monday, December 8, 2008

She's Got



STYLE!!!!

















Wow! When it comes to bedtime around here, Momo is nothing but fashion. She INSISTS on picking out her own clothes for daytime & night, but her nighttime choices are down right ridiculous. She is a stitch! Some part of her ensemble has to be in layers; top, bottom, sometimes both.
Gotta love that independence...especially when it isn't naughty:)

Sunday, December 7, 2008

This girl

is so special. She makes my heart skip a beat when she wakes up all cuddled between her papa and I.
She also brings about more tension and tears because she is so curious and wants to be so big and is one of those people who ends up finding things out the hard way.
This morning, I was lying in bed nursing Maggie and Mo woke up. Christian went and made sure she was ok then he gave her her reward for staying put in bed all night...one piece of coveted candy. When she had all but finished she came into our room and showed me her candy fingers and shared with me the good news, that she had stayed in her bed "All da night, mama!" I said, "Good job, Momo...now, can you go find a wash cloth and wipe your fingers clean?" So she pranced off in her precious three year old way and a few minutes later I heard the most awful sounds a mother could hear. I almost didn't believe my ears because I couldn't process what she could've been doing this on.
It was the sound of my baby girl choking.
I don't even think I unlatched Maggie, I just lept from bed and shouted, "Oh my God, she's choking!" and ran to her. She was gagging and drooling and crying. I scooped her up and ran to the bathroom hoping something would register in my pee brain before it was too late. By the time we got there enough of it had melted that she could breathe a little and talk to me. I asked her what she was choking on and she couldn't tell me so we came out to the kitchen. Christian asked her again, "hunny, what did you eat?"
We saw one of the kitchen table chairs pulled up to the cupboard. Christian went to the cupboard and opened it up. One of the bottles of medicine had been tampered with.
He asked her if she ate any of these and she cried and said "yes."
I got the phone and called Poison Control 1-800-222-1222.
I was put on hold for other emergencies...
We kept asking her questions as we were waiting and they weren't coming back.
The bottle she had gotten into was my bottle of stool softeners from after Maggie was born! Great! I don't know what the crap is in those things but what ever it is it can't be good for a three year old!
The nurse asked me how she got into where the medicine was. I told her she pulled a chair over to the counter and climbed up, opened the cupboard door and searched for some "candy."
We tried to find out how many she had taken.
"Tree". Everything is in threes because SHE'S three!
I couldn't wait any longer so I hung up and called back.
I said I couldn't wait b/c my three year old just ingested some medicine and I don't know how much and I don't know what to do.
She told us to have her drink some liquids then walked us through what the medicine was, MGs, how many were gone before, could we see any that were spat out, etc.
Then while we were talking, Christian was investigating to make sure none of the other medicines up there had been tampered with. He found another bottle that wasn't child-proof: Bear Aspirin. He showed it to me and Momo said, "I ate some of those too." I told the nurse on the line and she said, "Huh, ok, how many do you think she ate?" My best guess was between 1 and 7. They were the 325 MG ones too, not the baby aspirin.
He pulled out the children's gummy vitamins and asked her about that and she said she didn't eat any of those because she couldn't open the bottle!
The nurse was concerned about the aspirin.
I started to cry. I had held it together until then but lost it when I learned she had eaten aspirin. The nurse also said she was concerned about that.
We concluded the conversation with our best guess that she had probably only eaten one since they would taste so bad and children chew pills b/c they think it's candy, they don't swallow them like grown-ups. I did not know that. That was the best news I had heard all day!
She drank some water and I made her breakfast. Things were calming down when I heard Gretchen wake up. I was turning off the water and wiping my hands dry to go get her and heard the next worse sound a mother can hear. An enormous THUD! then silence. Then a shrill scream by my baby girl! I ran into her room to find her flat on her back on the ground.
She's only 18 months old.
Mo didn't try climbing out of her crib until she was two.
The only reason Gretta could do that was because I finally threw the crib tent I'd had since Mo was two away because I walked in on Gretta almost hanging herself in the giant hole she had made worse by dangling from it when she'd first wake up!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
So,
1. We are moving all medicines to a box and putting them on TOP of the cupboard because Mo knows how to get our door locks open, and continue to drill into her that medicine is only to be given by grown ups and only when you're sick;
and
2. we'll be getting another tent because Gretch is no where near ready for a big girl bed, and mama can not take one more event like this morning.
P.S.
The whole time Maggie was just quietly waiting for me to come back and get her.
I don't remember what Christian was doing or where he was. I'm sure he was right there but it's all so fuzzy.

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